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Inspiration

You ask me where I get my inspiration
You ask me as if you really think I'll tell you that
You think that my beauty comes from
Some sort of frustration.
You wonder who I think about and
Why it sounds so sad

How naive of you to think that I would let
You know all my deepest secrets just like that

I tell you, darling, I can't really tell you.
Cause if I tell you I would have to kill you right away
But, oh, my love, I couldn't possibly kill you
Because then my inspiration will just fade away

How naive of you to think that I would let you go just like that

Well, honey, close your eyes
And just lay back down
Don't move any of your body
Try to feel your ground
And just let your mind get wise.

Now would be a perfect time for me to tell you
Where to get your inspiration
But to be honest I just love looking at you
when you're lying down there like this.
It makes me feel really inspired
It makes my mind go wild.
Now feel your eyelids becoming heavy
We are falling asleep.

Maggie

Maggie wears her dirty shoes
She wears them inside out
It makes her feel like she's the earth
She tiptoes, makes no sound

Maggie paints her humble truth
She paints in black and white
It makes her feel like she is worth
The strokes of tender light.

Maggie lives beneath the sky
A deeply rooted tree
Her leaves are always red with shy
Her branches wild and free

And she fills the heavy rain
Taking in god's tears
Growing bigger from the pain
Sheltering her fears

Maggie walks the time and miles
Her shoes still inside out
She walks to find the truth and lies
Of our kind father's doubt
Maggie Kindsfather's doubt

The One With Sin

All my sorrow for tomorrow
I will finish by today
I'll imagine all the horror
Make it a less surprising play

When you come to break my fillings
I will Be prepared to fight
I won't melt and I won’t cry
I will hold my head up high

I won't let you stab me from the back
I will turn around and smile and
That's the pay you'll take
You can wash my brain but still
My heart will sing 'cause
I’m the one with love
And you're the one with sin
You're the one with sin....

All the brokenhearted people
Living in this world agree
Down on your knees and weeping
Is the worst where you can be

Crying lets the demons out but
Also takes away your soul
You should take the lead and
Don't let anger take control
Don't you lose control...

My heart is still a bit sore from
The way you left it there
Longing for more
What'd you do that for?
I've been there before
Love shouldn't be such a choir
I'll take my last bit of strength and use it for
Holding open my door.

BugBomb

There's a rat living in my basement
Every time I see it, it is getting bigger
And I bet it's feeding off my worst nightmares
I know it's eavesdropping
Eating out my life.

No bug bomb could ever kill my fears
I know now I'm my own enemy.
But when I close my eyes all that is gone
Cause when I close my eyes I'm all alone

I'm all alone
In the darkness of my own world
I'm all alone
Behind the bars of my mental ward
I'm all alone... I'm all alone...

There's a cat I keep over feeding
I'm afraid that she won't like me otherwise
She'll get fat and sick and I'll be feeling
Guilty like I always do.
Story of my life.

I'm my own enemy
I'm all alone
No one could kill my fears
It's eating me a life
I'm a bug bomb
I'm a bug bomb

Going Mad

You've got all these new friends
You've got all this new life
And you've got them without me
You've got them without me
I try to feel dense
And I try to look nice but
My life is behind me
My looks don't define me

And I'm going mad
I'm going mad, I'm going mad
I just wanna drop my head
I wanna take off my crown and break down
Break down
Break down

You were all of my light
Then you went out of sight
Now I wonder in darkness
I wonder in darkness
I wonder all night
Searching for something right
Because my hopes are reckless
My fears are just spaceless

And I'm going mad...

I'm gonna keep on going mad
'Till I'm ready to facet empty bed
And I'm gonna keep on being sad
Till I wake up one morning and you are gone
From my head

Lover

Lover, what have you done to me
You’re so cruel
Your love hurts, sharpens my teeth
Clenched my fists. I’m an angry fool
My eyes used to see the world
Now they only swirl around you
My mouth used to say my thoughts
Now I save my thoughts to spare you

The time it takes to understand
How to love me back
The time it takes to understand
How to not let this love of ours wreck
We wreck

I used to believe we would grow old together
But we have outlived and outgrown each other

Oh lover, take your desperate grip
Off of my throat, let me breath
Lier. Said you’d take a sip
But you drank the blood out of my veins
Till I was done with
They say love’s a two-way street
Well, I’m down and stripped
How about you?
They say you will come around
Well I’ve been around and I’m through

With the time it takes for you to get
How to love me back
The time it takes for you to get
How to not let this love of ours wreck
We wreck

I used to believe we would grow old together
But we have outlived and outgrown each other
Now it’s time for me to go
And it’s time for you to go
It’s time to go

Flying Bird

My baby is a flying bird
I cannot catch his mind
By day he puddles in the dirt
But at night he shows me the light
He takes me up to the sky where we

Fly...we fly...we fly...fly...

We fly amid the blinding clouds
We crash into by coming planes
We fall into the ocean waves
We taste the salt with our lungs
And we die...die....we die....die...

My baby is a flying bird
Too wild for this ground
I'm hanging in his every word
Slowly losing what I found
I thought he could not fly without me
I thought I could not die without him
But it's a lie...it's a lie...such a lie...a lie...

But in my dreams we still gather
To look at the sky where we
Fly...fly...we fly...we fly...

Dreamer

She was a girl who lived apart
From everyone else in the world
Her heart was cold
She was her own god, her only devil
Only reason to be a part
Of this delirious world

She was always sleeping
but never asleep
She was dreaming of finding
Someone she could keep
She was trying to answer
The questions in her head
From all the years
All the nine lives that she has had

She was admired, but her admirers
Would always stay away
Afraid to fall
Her eyes, to die for
Were always filled with tears
But she smiled anyway
She thought she'd fool them all

She was always told
her beauty was the key
But he could never find the doors
To fit it in so she could be free

Monkey

Look at me- see the princess
Come near me. Break the distance
Come closer. Don't avoid me
Just because I look so lonely

I'm tired of being your monkey
Of trying to get you to like me
But I can't control it, it's calling me
I am begging you look at me

I noticed you find me pretty
But when you say it, It sounds like pity
I want you to look inside me
See how my world can get exciting!

7am Manhattan

7am, I am on a train to work
I am, you are,
He, she, it is very very very tired
Too tired to walk and too tired to talk
Too tired to make a not tired look

Every other person
Has their eyes closed
All the open eyes
On this train are lost
Too tired to breathe
Too tired to live
To go to work
Get it over with

Those who think are thinking of quitting
Those who sleep are dreaming of leaving
Those who stand are longing to sit and
Those who sit are happy to sit

This is all very very sad
I know they all would rather be in bed
And it's now 7:30am
You are, he, she, it is and I am

And a happy shiny voice appears on the announcer:

Ladies and gentlemen, we are delayed because of train traffic ahead of us. We apologize for any inconvenience.

The Ice Cream Song

I walk alone walk alone walk alone
Walk alone walk alone walk alone
I stop at an ice-cream truck
And take a chocolate cone
And I feel like I'm 11
but I look like I'm about 18
People look at me and smile
Like I'm something they have never seen

But oh oh oh oh oh

How I wish that among these people
I would see your beautiful face
You would see me and stop me
I'll tell you that you got me
And my heart would get warm
And my ice-cream would melt
And suddenly I'll feel like I am in the right place
I would suddenly feel like I am in the right place
I will finally feel like I am in the right place
As soon as I will see your face
As soon as I will see your face

The eyes in my head
see the world going mad
Still I keep on walking ahead
The sky is falling down on me
The world is turning flat
And all the people that surround me
Start a panic, don't know what to do
And I feel like I should run away
Or hide inside or start a panic too

But all I can think about is...

Be A Bee

Did you know that when a bee stings somebody it'll die?
Even of all other bees thought it was a hero
Why, oh why, oh why couldn't you have been a bee?

Did you know that mosquito bites make your body more immune?
Even if it really hurts you become much stronger.
Why, oh why, oh why couldn't you've been a mosquito?

And did you know that when pigeons crap
And it lands right in your head
You supposedly will get lucky with some money?
Why, oh why, oh why couldn't you have been a pigeon?

Done

I look at you and I see a man who's gonna take me far
As long as I don't look behind and open up my heart
And I don't wanna go too far from my own home
But I wanna see where you live
And I don't see no other way then to change my day
and simply try to believe

Well I was scared of being alone
And I was waiting for my life to begin
I was gonna buy myself a future
But I gave all my money to some butcher
Who then chopped me up into little pieces
And gave it all into fucking recess
And I'm done

I look at you and I see a friend
Who's gonna stick around
But I'm so confused I'll probably be
The first to live the ground
And I don't wanna say it but I think I'm insane
Hearing what I just said
And I think I should stop now and
Save all my bullshit for the next set.

Well this is how my life passes me by.
I'm here and I screaming but I'm living a lie.
Don't wanna lose the fight before I start it
My fridge is fool but I am starving
When I look at you I get excited
WTF am I still doing hiding?
I'm done...

I will make my way out into
The beautiful wild and
Walk myself into the light
You, please help me make my way
Into the beautiful light and
Walk me straight into the light

Sick Desire

It makes me ache to see you kiss
it makes me sick to hear
How much you live and miss
How innocent, how clear

It makes me ache to see you touch
The power striking through you
The power of all that makes you march
Through world, that lives just for you

It makes my world completely mad
The envy taking over
The love of which I only read
In books, but seen it nowhere

I wanna love the way you do
I wanna feel the fire
It makes me ache to see you two
Your sickness- my desire.

My world has shifted when I met you
I just wanted you to let me in
Let me get close and let my ghosts
That landed ice in my eyes with their lies
Let them go
Let them go

Your love is my sick desire

THE FIGHT

The Fight

Come on in, the water's fine, she said
Break the wheel, cross the line,
Take a breath, pass it down, look around.
It was all about us and now it's gone.

To believe in a soul is to mistrust a mind
To misuse the guide for which our fathers died
But my father left me in a field that's mined
She said, come on in, the water's fine.

So I walked right into the white, wild waves
I wanted to feel how much my soul weighs
But the bright world around me began to scream
Scared, I let the water take me in

Come on in and join the fight, she said
Take a breath, take a bite
It gets more sour the more we abide
But I hear it's so sweet on the other side
As we turn the tide.

Molds

Dancing in the dark, hitting all the walls
Days and nights we bark, hating our molds
We are made from our brother's bones
Seeing with our mother's eyes
Afraid of our own

Dancing in the dark
To the world's saddest songs
Is what we do best

Dancing in my tears is your reflection
I won't wipe them off cause you might disappear
I won't wipe them off without permission
Dancing in our molds is our thing, my dear

Dancing on the edge of our dreams
Oh, open your eyes, take a step forward
The world will catch you when love will take over

Take my hand, let's jump, head first, into the wind
Hold my eyes with your eyes, don't ever let go
Let the wind change our course, reshape our molds
Don't be scared, I've done this before

We are made from our brother's bones
Seeing with our mother's eyes
Afraid of our own

Testing Bombs

Raising hair, on my trembling arms
Are tasting air, testing bombs
How did I live before?
How did I breath before?
You are my air now
You filled my lungs
With your wild essence

You put a cloud over my head
A waterless downfall
All that I love and all that I had
I'd give away only
To lose myself in the scent of your skin
I'd give it all
Like this world I forever will spinn
Looking for you
I'll follow your scent

Time, please stop
Can we stay like this?
Don't wake me up
Don't make me breathe
Air that I breathed before
How did I live before?
You are my air now
You filled my lungs
With your wild essence

When you go and my world will be new
I will hold my breath until I learn how to
Let you go. How to breathe without you
I will hold by breath until I found somebody new

Lady Please

Please lady teach me how to look away
When you don't wanna see the pain of everyday's
Cray-crazy rush and blinding misery
Lady, please teach me how to be free

I know you've got all the answers
I've seen you looking out
Into the limitless world
No fears and no doubts
Tell me where you took
Those flying lessons before
You decided to fly out of your window?

Please, lady listen I know you're on your way
To be out of this prison, but please, lady, stay
There is still so much you could do
There is still so much you could be
So much you could give
So much you could love

Tell me, do you feel the air
Running through your fingers and hair
Is it everything you thought it would be?
Do you hear the crowd
Screaming fear hearted from the ground
Is it everything you dreamed it would be?

When alice was falling and falling and falling
She heard voices, they were calling her calling
And she followed, she followed down the rabbit hole
And she left behind all that was holy

And you wonder, you wonder what was the point?
She fell harder and harder with every poison she took
What a martir. She murdered her soul for a wonder
I wonder

Do you feel the air
Running through your fingers and hair
Is it everything you thought it would be?
Do you hear the crowd
Screaming fear hearted from the ground
Is it everything you dreamed it would be?

Please lady teach me how to look away
Please lady show me how to love better
Lady please tell me that there's a better way
Give me one good reason why any of this matters

Open Fears

My eyes are open to your fears
And I am hoping your ideas
About complexity of my
Completely overflowing mind

Don't overflow your brave lil head
Cuz you're the best I ever had
Oh say, can you see me through the tears
My eyes are open to your fears

It doesn't have to be so hard
To hold my cold and slippery heart
Let it slip. Let it fall

It doesn't have to be so hard
Take all the things that break your heart
Let them go

Oh Them Rivers

I can see my cold breath cutting your face
I can hear your heartbeat slowing it's pace
When all the words are said
There's no coming back, no waking up the dead

Oh them rivers running blind and heartless
Let me run with them
Don't let me drown in these still waters
When all the words are said
There's no coming back, no waking up the dead

Oh there's never a better time than now
We count minutes days and years
We tie our tired eyes
Wish we'd tie our mouth
They tell better lies

Aren't you tired of dying in your own arms?
When all your walls are down
Come into my blind river
Where in each other's arms we will drown

LingLing

You, my dear, may have broken the vow
But I vow not to ever be broken
You may not be near me now
But for you my heart is forever open

Oh, but the river will take me
Oh, through the sticks and stones of the road
Where my heart will awaken your aching soul

And I won't give up on you
No, I won't give up on you

No matter how hard you try to push me away
Where I go or how far you are
Don't matter, no way
No matter how little you care or
Believe in my love
It's true. I won't give up on you.

Your wounds are so deep now
And you are so used to them
You don't even feel them hurt
The pain is your art
But I will treat them with a healing potion
Made from the juices of my loving heart

And I won't give up on you
No, I won't give up on you

I will sing lullabies to you every night
I'll scare off your nightmare and hold you tight
All of your wrongs, I'll help you make them right
I'll do. I won't give up on you

LingLing baby knows all about loving you
He told me all of your secrets
Silent kisses and white soft view
He promised to keep you warm
While I keep my distance

You, my dear, may have broken the vow
But I vow not to ever be broken
You may not be near me now
But for you my heart is forever open